I survived Wednesday. Didn't think I would. It was the kind of day where you really don't have a minute of nothingness, unless you're sitting at a red light. Today was bad for food. I ate once, spending $8 on my meal to only eat 1/4 of it. Drank Dr. Pepper to get through my 5 meetings in a row.
My adviser mentioned tonight that it's the most relaxed she'd ever seen me. I'm not relaxed, I'm so exhausted I can barely sit up straight. I have nothing to say because I'm too tired to think straight. I'm too tired to even clean up my mess of a basement.
Someday I'll enjoy checking my e-mail. The To-Do lists will have 5 items instead of 25. Someday I'll go to bed without dreading the morning. Someday I'll do what I want, instead of what needs to be done. Someday this exhaustion will end. But right now I feel like I'm swimming in the ocean, against the current, without a lifeboat in sight.
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Here is a virtual hug from me to you. If we lived together still I would make you breakfast. I am sorry to hear that life is so hard right now.
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